I am to thankful for all those the emailed and expressed concern about my site being down this past week. Your kindness was very thoughtful. Thank you. It's nice to be back. I have used this blogging forum for over 8 years and it was strange to have there be problems and not be able to log in a write.
My hosting site, I think that is the correct term... I am really not very computer or internet savvy, has been having a DdoS attack. For those that are not familiar with that acronym from what I can figure out someone is attacking or flooding all the main hosting people and essential overtaking their ability to function. There has been confirmation of "extortion money" wanted from the cyber criminals to get the sites back up and running. The FBI is even involved.
As write this and over the past week I realize how vulnerable the internet is and I am powerless to do anything about it. I think about the geniuses who understand what is going on and marvel at my own nothingness.
I am a one woman show here. I don't have a team of people working behind the scenes (except my hosting site) to make allisonkimball.com run. I format in the smallest of ways, thankfully there is a template and a place to ask questions, but if something goes wrong I have to fix it. I create the content, photograph, and write. I suppose in all fairness I have a wonderful team (my family) that creates the content, I just document it. I am the woman behind the email answering questions, helping with downloads, dealing with issues. As I write this it makes it look as if I do nothing at all, I'm not sure why sometimes I feel overwhelmed.
My site is but a small trickle (thanks Samantha for the beautiful illustration) in the overall picture of websites; a tiny corner that I occupy. I am like the little people drawing with sidewalk chalk, when great masterpieces are being created. But I'm fond of this little place and all that has been created over time. I love looking back and seeing the growth of my family. I am humbled by the impressions and promptings that guide me to make choices about the content and financial end of our site. I am not compensated financially in anyway for the site content and downloads. I periodically ask God why it is to be this way, especially when a really great offer comes around, but I quickly humble myself and acknowledge that His ways are not my ways and I try to be obedient.
If I am going to be really honest, I am blessed and compensated in more ways than I can innumerate so it's really not an issue. Sometimes the selfish me has more control... almost always.
So today I am trying to feel more gratitude for the things I take for granted, like my dishwasher or a hot shower. Instead of looking around and seeing all the baseboards and walls that need to be cleaned or the carpet than needs to be vacuumed, I am trying to be happy that the toys are picked up and not a shoe is in sight. I am abundantly thankful for a washer and dryer that runs constantly making our clothing smell wonderful.
I have loved the beautiful spring weather, but I am so thankful for the wonderful storm that rolled into the valley last night and cleared away the pollen so Brick can breath again. I love a noisy spring storm.
I am appreciating today the chatter that is happening over my shoulder as Dash and Loaf play, color their projects, and interact. They are such good friends and I will miss this time when it is gone.
I am so thankful for a silly dog who puts a slimy ball at the back of my chair so that I can play fetch across the house while I am working. The little clicking of her nails (or are they claws... paw-nails sound less menacing) on the tile as she runs after the ball.
I am humbled to be able to hear and read the word of God every single day if I chose to. I can feel the whispering so the Spirit that guides my life and that of my family. I have a Savior that atoned for my sins. I don't remember Him enough in my day.
Today, I am grateful for all of you. Those who come here each day and share my life. You offer hope and love on discouraging days and congratulations during the triumphant times. Unexpected friendships have come because of this tiny corner of the internet. I am blessed beyond measure because of you and your support. Thank you. I look forward to what the future will bring and all that we can share.