Each morning I wake up I walk around the house assessing what needs to happen in my day. What projects or chores need my immediate attention? I walk from room to room seeing the dust on the furniture, the papers discarded from back packs and art projects. Shoes and socks abandoned here and there. The remains of a game not quite cleaned up liters the sofa table, while a neglected dirty bowl with cereal remains from someone's post dinner snack can be found by a computer. Bedrooms need to be cleaned, music needs to be put away and organized after months of neglect on the piano, books overflowing from shelves need to be restocked... the list goes on and on.
Most mornings I feel overwhelmed by the mess and clutter and wonder how I have failed to keep things in control, but occasionally I can sit back and see the relationships that are being built within the messy walls of our home. The doors splattered with foreign substances, the baseboards neglected and abused, and the finger and hand prints smudged on every surface are evidence of lives lived and moments spent together. Yes I try and keep up and yes it is important for me to keep things cleaned and organized, but today I realize once again what matters most is the people in our home.
I treasure my time with my children, hearing about their day and the crazy things that happened to them while there were away. I want to be there when they break down in tears, to hold them while I reassure them that everything will be all right. I want our home to be a refuge and a place of joy.
So today I might let a few more things go, I will turn off the electronics that perpetually run our lives (except the camera of course) and try to slow down. Instead of focusing on what needs to be done, I want to see the miracles, the tender mercies that I missed this past month. I want to remember why I do what I do; to reprioritize if necessary. I hope I will be remembered by my love and faith, not by how clean or stylish my home is or isn't. I want to be defined as a loving and devoted mother and wife, but most importantly I want to be a faithful disciple of Christ.
If we can eat some good food along the way, then it's all perfect.