written back in October of 2009 when I was home-bound due to illness, I found it as I was indexing the posts and looking through the drafts:
I partook of the sacrament today. It had been a long time since I was last able to partake in sacrament meeting. Today I partook in my pajamas, under a blanket on the couch. My family was gathered around me as two sweet young men administered the sacrament. I was overcome by the Spirit. It has been a few years since I had to partake of the sacrament in my home (thankfully). The sweet memory of that time flooded my mind and I wondered how I had forgotten the importance and power of this simple ordinance.
(image from the LDS.org web site)
I had forgotten it's importance in the chaos 8 children bring to sacrament meeting. I'm usually out in the hall trying to get some small baby to behave. Or trying to get another child to be quiet or from throwing something a few pews down.
In the distraction I had forgotten that the sacrament is an intimately personal act with a merciful Savior. It is the renewal of a covenant to become more like Him each day. It is a promise to have His Spirit always with us. It's something that He did just for me. It is not something that can be done for me by anyone else.
Today as we watched these two young men read the sacrament prayer from the scriptures, even the babies were quiet, perhaps even reverent. It was the first time one of the young men had ever given the sacrament prayer. I was honored to be part of this.
I am humbled to know that the Lord remembered me. That I could feel a peace envelop my soul that was sweet and powerful. A reminder that I had not been forgotten, despite my absence. That in all the people of the world, he knows me personally and is my advocate.
"It is not possible to make real change all by ourselves. Our own willpower and our own good intentions are not enough. When we make mistakes or choose poorly, we must have the help of our Savior to get back on track. We partake of the sacrament week after week to show our faith in His power to change us. We confess our sins and promise to forsake them (see D&C 58:43)."Julie B. Beck, "Remembering, Repenting, and Changing," Ensign, May 2007, 111