The conversation goes like this, "So how many children do you have?"
Mouths gape open and the "rabbit look" appears. It's the look of "have you ever heard of family planning because you are breeding like rabbits."
At first I was offended, the comments start coming after our third daughter was born. What did it matter if I had 4 children or 9 children? How could someone judge me like that?
They had no idea what inspiration I was receiving?
Of course that question was also the answer. They didn't understand. They had not received the same revelation and I did not know what experiences shaped their lives.
Then in the course of the same conversation comes the "saint look". It's the look that happens when they find out more than 1/2 of our children are adopted. The number hasn't changed, but suddenly in their eyes our motivations are different.
The thing is I have 9 children, it makes no difference if they are adopted or biological. I didn't necessarily want 9 children when were first married and I certainly didn't after I had our first, but I want them now. This is the family that John and I have discussed with the Lord. We have received inspiration as to when each of our children were to be born and sometimes it was shocking.
There are some days when the fighting is severe, when the messes seem to multiply, and I think it would be lovely to have only two or three children. I wonder how I will ever survive all these children, but then I look around and ask, "Who would I give up? Who could I do without?" The reality is none of them, even at their worst I love and adore them. I can't imagine my life without them.
The looks and comments will continue to make me giggle because I do have a HUGE family. That is the path we are walking with the Lord. We are more blessed than words can describe.