I am the "jack of all trades, master of none". At least I feel that way this week and last and well for a while. I have this huge today list of things I need to do, want to do and learn, and it just sits there. I have projects that I have started for the blog, that are left undone. Things that need to be fixed and repaired.
I feel like I'm letting everyone down. Those negative feels are being whispered in my mind that I'm not enough.
I listen again.
I fight back.
Of course I haven't accomplished anything in the last month. I put everything on hold to care not only for myself, but for my family as a horrible virus infected all of us. I am not useless, I am doing exactly what I should be doing: being a mother.
It will always be this way. My family will always come before a project or a blog post. My children will always come first. That is not to say that I always show them they are priority. I have my moments of frustration and being overwhelmed where I just walk into my studio and shut the door.
I just need to create something. I need to let my mind relax and my spirit rest. Creating is selfish for me, until I realized that most everything I do is for someone else; a quilt for the boys, a scrapbook page for the family. I recently filled my magnet board with family photos. It was something simple. Something that helped me remember who I was and what was truly important in life.
I listened, only this time I listened to the spirit.
I didn't need to be the best watercolor artist. I don't need to be the best blogger. I don't need to be the most creative or productive. I need to be faithful. I need to listen when the spirit whispers. I need to be the best mother I know how to be. It will be enough and I feel loved.